Still Here

Standing on my grave on a cool fall day while the sun warms my face.

A strange feeling – not sad or fatal – but weirdly calming – none of us gets away with tricking destiny.

We coerce and tempt – we punch and pull – we struggle and scream.

But it comes anyway.

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Wait, … hang about …..  hold on a minute……

We are still here

This not over – the struggle part continues – the dark days – the drama – the conflict – yeah, … all in there.

But the ink is not dry.

We are skipping ahead and reading a few lines.

We get what we choose or we take what is left —- there is no third way.

This will be the end – but damn it – let’s make the remaining pages something special.

Let’s leave nothing undone.

Let’s live!


These are my thoughts after meeting the caretaker at the cemetery and picking out the resting place for my wife and I. As you may know if you follow me – my wife has been battling cancer and it has not been going our way. The diagnosis was dire two years ago – and nothing has stopped it from progressing.

Here we are– making final arrangements. Not because we want to put them into action, but more so we can clear them from our minds.

Anybody who faces this comes to this – this point of “giving in” to all the possibilities that are coming at you.

It’s not “giving up” —– giving up means waiting around for the bad to happen…….we are not waiting , we are doing.

We are looking this bastard right in the face and not turning away.

We are still here.

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24 thoughts on “Still Here

  1. Wayner T-Bone
    It’s never about the score or functions of the game. It’s always about the sceneries we see and the company we keep. The memories will be filled for your family of the journey not the end results. Your always in our thoughts and prayers. Love you Guys

  2. Stay strong Wayne. Like you, I have also made my final arrangements. Got a lovely niche bought and final matters all settled 😉 Like you, I stared at death and fought it a few times and am still here 🙂 Blessings

  3. Your family is in my thoughts and prays. It is hard to know exactly what to say. Just know there are people who care about all of you and are here for you. May you Find strength and love in each other.

  4. Your family is in my thoughts and prays. It is hard to know exactly what to say. Just know there are people who care about all of you and are here for you. May you Find strength and love in each other.

  5. My heart is with you two. You are in a Zone no one can understand until they have been there. I wish your strength and love for one another grows larger with each day.

    You have friends. You are not alone.

    DZ

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