Just a quick post to let you guys know I am ok – I got up early (but not early enough to catch the sunrise where I wanted to catch it!) — so,… as I was driving north I pulled over to get the sun where I was — An ok spot on the river — Driving towards it; 4 deer were guarding the entrance and checking me out – kind of a low impact Cerberus waiting for me as I approached the dock.
Not a successful photo-shoot — but it is my first this year — this is a good step.
My life has experienced more sadness recently than ever but I feel it is finally letting go —
– because I have finally let go.
It is ok for me to feel joy, in fact, it is ok if I run to that bliss and meet it head on.
Until this week I would not let myself do that – I felt that: I did not deserve it and was not entitled to it. Those of you who have experienced great loss probably understand this.
So yesterday – I let myself have sushi for the first time in forever and it was sublime.
Today I took some photos.
Small steps indeed — but good steps.
Notes: This is more like a recovering from grief post that I would not put on this site — but I had not posted in so long, wanted everyone to know where I was.
Wish you all well.
I continue to drive myself to a new shore – I no longer dread it is happening – I welcome it.
(Although like the deer, I am cautious)